I have good friends here in North Carolina and I think part of being a friend is to understand friends when they are having a bad time, but also to be honest with friends when they are wallowing in something or hurting themselves. Today, I had an interesting conversation with both Sassy and 'dib and they said things to me both directly and indirectly that resonated with me on how I'm letting my frustration with my work situation bleed over into my personal life. Hemorrage is more like it. I work directly with Muaddib, Robogoth, and Senor Unpleasant and Sassy works in the same organization.

'Goth and I have talked at length about some of our frustrations but I thought I was largely keeping it at work. Unpleasant and I routinely bash the shit out of our situation from sheer frustration and impotence at being able to affect in anyway our situation which I won't go into here because I will resolve that this is the last time I will write about these frustrations in this space. I will keep it in a constructively critical voice on my workblog. I also further resolve to do more to keep my work frustration between the hours of 9am and 5pm.

This week, the frustration combined with the death of my grandmother and my parents deciding to move to Reno, Nevada when my Dad retires (which is a decision I do not understand). My partner, Ana is in Brasil for a year or more, and although I will eventually be joining her, right now it is difficult and I miss her a lot. So somehow this week, the grumpy bastard in me is bleeding all over my life. 'Dib brought up an idea w/r to creating more of a community space (after the blog conference we attended this morning which I will write about after this) and I just pissed all over it rather than offering my opinion in a less cynical and more constructive way. Sorry 'Dib, I was an ass. Also, this week and last week we ('Dib, 'Goth, and Sassy) have been talking extensively about our gaming group and mostly when it comes to the logistics of the dinner situation I've just been an asshole rather than offering anything constructive.

So anyhow, I'm rambling on a little too much. The long and short message is thanks guys and gals (shout out to the entire collective), I'm glad I've got friends like you all to keep me honest and who are not be afraid to tell me directly and indirectly when I'm being a stubborn, feeling sorry for myself, unconstructive asshole.